whoa!

So its been almost a year since ive written on here, but i am usually on myspace, so thats the best way to get in touch with me.  so anyway, for those of you who for the majority use xanga, ill give you a quick update. 

- well, Ive got my own apartement since July, and i love it!  I have plenty of room, and the quiet is wonderful

- I am almost done with school. I have my final May 7th, and i graduate the 24th.  I will be an RN, i cant even believe it...its kinda scary, but im sooo stinkin excited!!  Its seriously crazy!

- I just had my birthday april 1st..im 22.....when did that happen.

- i miss everyone so much, so get in touch with me please!  Id love to catch up with everyone....

Well, I dont really write on here much but i felt that it was necessary tonight.  Why Im not sure, but here goes anyway.....

       Things have been very trying lately to say the least.  My relationship with God has been very lax , and its definately my own fault.  There are no excuses, but i continuously put school and work and everything i possibly can in front of my God time, which has been practically non-existant.  I have just been struggling with my flesh, and wanting to make things right myself, and not trusting that God is in total control of everything.  Not necessarilly any specific "sin issue", but almost fear of losing control of my life.  If I were reading His word, then maybe Id feel like i was going somewhere.  If i were talking to Him maybe i wouldnt feel like im lost in the middle of the desert completely alone.  I feel empty inside right now, and its stupid, because i know the very person that can completly fill me.....am I afraid to give Him the controls again because i want to control my life to try and keep myself from heartache.  Which in turn is going to bring me emptiness and heartach in and of itself.   Why am i being so stubborn?  Ive been through this before, and i need to end the spiral....I know right from wrong, I know what Gods word says, and i know my purpose is to glorify God...why is it so difficult to put head knowledge into heart knowledge, and why did i let myself drift so far from the one person that truly loves me totally 100 % unselfishly?  Someone please help me to make this easier...better yet..Please pray for me!!   I need to desire God and i need to build my faith, and take a step forward and let Him let me "walk on water".

MYSPACE

Hey guys..just wanted to let you know that i have a myspace.....Im usually onthere much more than I am here, so if you want to get in touch with me, thats probably the best bet..

www.myspace.com/daniyellerz

thats me!!!  Ill talk to you later..miss everyone...love you too!

update

Hey just a little update.....so, I have finished OB (the babies and moms having babies) and I have this week off, then I move on to PEDS (kids)  I am looking forward to this, because i really like kids.  6 weeks left in this semester, then i have some summer classes, and I graduate next MAY!!   Can you believe I will be a nurse next MAY??  wow....i cant wait...i absolutely love it! 

So, i took a test, and i can put in a catheter now.....thats exciting...maybe not to most people, but its one other thing that i do daily that i can legally do without supervision!!!   YEAH!!!!  Well, thats really all thats going on...I dont do much other than school, but if something comes up, I will definately let you know....i love you all!

H, R, Lindy----  you have to come here in April! I dont know if you all got my text or not, but you have to have to have to!! 

April 1st - 21st birthday....wow..im getting old! 

hey all....so i havent talked to all of you, but some of you know ive been having trouble lately with doubt and realizing Gods soverignty, but ive been thinking about it alot i've come to realize that

1. Im never happy doing something against what ive been taught my whole life....

2. my godly friends are the best friends i have and they are the ones that i feel as though love me the most.  they are encouraging and i couldnt ask for better friends!

3. i need to increase my faith, and talk to God much more than i do, and listen to what he has to say. and

4. I have soooo many increadable blessing in my life!!!

Now...i dont know what my relization will bring about but be praying that i will grow closer to God, and that He will become more real to me daily!!  Thanks guys...i love you all.....